Two Steps Forward, One Step Back

So, last night I gorged myself on some of the kiddos potty candy. M&M's to be exact. I was having a serious sweets craving and I figured those would be better than eating a whole bowl of ice cream, or worse, cinnamon rolls. *drools like Homer Simpson* Cinnamon rolls...*drools* *snaps back into reality*

With those tiny candies, came a caloric overage. I went over by 177 calories yesterday. I guess I should be mad at myself, but I'm actually not. I don't want this diet to be something that controls my life. If I wanna eat a pack of M&M's I'm going to allow myself to do that. What I'm not going to allow myself to do is eat more than one. I think that by giving in to my temptations sometimes it will let me feel like this is not a diet, but my choice. If that makes any sense at all.

Today I've been especially hungry. Not sure why. Maybe I'm just bored. I have all these crafting projects that I need to get done, but I've been lacking motivation to do them, plus I have all this housework that I've been procrastinating on. I need to sit down and make myself a list of things to do each day and only when I do a certain number of them can I sit down and check on my farm, and mafia, and cafe etc. (Damn you Facebook! And your games that suck me in! *pumps fist*)

I'm beginning to notice that one of the hardest things for me has been the drinking. I want so badly to drink a glass of tea or one (or six) of the two packs of root beer that Ricky brought me home the other day. But those are empty calories that I could be using to, y'know, eat. *sigh* I've actually done quite well in that department so far. I've reached for the tea pitcher and almost poured myself a glass, but grabbed the water at the last second. I need to get some more of those Propel Fitness waters. They taste like Kool-Aid but only have 10 calories per serving. And they break up the monotony of just drinking water constantly.

Tomorrow, Sammi and I will weigh-in at the gym after Zumba. I've almost done it here a couple times, but I'm a little scared to. Usually when I weigh myself I do it right before I hop in the shower in the morning. And I'm usually okay with the number that pops up. But when I get to the gym, I've got my clothes on and while I realize that just by adding clothes it will add a few pounds to the scale, it just always seems to be higher. Like one time I was 193 here at the house and I was 198 at the gym! My scale at home has never tipped over to 200, but the one at the gym did. I don't want to get my hopes up here and see a lower number just to be disappointed when I get there tomorrow. So, I'm going to try and hold out until tomorrow.

I really hope that the scale will be tipped in my favor tomorrow. Every time I've gone there the number just keeps creeping higher and higher no matter what I do. I've been trying really hard this time, and I just want that to be evident in the numbers.

Wish me luck tomorrow!

Another Year Gone By

Here we go again. I swear I don't know why it is so hard for me to keep up with this thing. I'm on the computer constantly, and I used to be so good at writing everything down.

While I don't normally do New Year's Resolutions, this year I have decided that I will have one. I've decided that it is time for me to get serious about losing this weight that has seem to have crept up on me.

When we moved here from Tallahassee I was 154lbs. Monday I weighed in at 200. Not acceptable. I thought that number would never be seen again. The first, and what I presumed would be the last time, was when I was pregnant with the twins. The day I had them I was 210lbs. I thought those days were behind me, oh how wrong I was.

So, this year I have decided that I'm not going to lean on doctors to help me with a pill for a few months, or sit back and wish the pounds away. It is time for me to do something about it. And so far I've done okay.

My new cell phone has an app for weight loss. It is called My Fitness Pal. It allows me to keep track of my caloric intake and exercise throughout the day so I feel more accountable. So far I've been doing okay. I just started that on Monday and I have had a few times where I chose candy when I should have just drank a glass of water, but I think that is okay. I don't want to go overboard with this. If I want a few pieces of candy then I am not going to deprive myself of them. If I do, then I am going to make myself miserable on this diet and not do well on it.

My friend, Sammi and I have started going to the gym as well. We actually started going around October/November (I think) of 2010. We joined The Wellness and Fitness Center and started taking Zumba classes. I love it so much! Unfortunately, around Christmas we missed classes for about three weeks. And I spent that time taking care of sick children and sitting on my butt all day (not eating bon-bons, but I may as well have been). We started back in class this week. We've been attending the Monday and Friday 8:30am-9:30am class.

Today has been a pretty good eating day. I had two scrambled eggs with cheese and five pieces of turkey bacon for breakfast. And for lunch I had four scrambled eggs with cheese. My calorie limit is 1200 and I'm still under it for dinner. That's the hardest part for me. I'm usually okay during the day, but at night when I'm sitting around with Ricky watching The Food Network, all I wanna do is snack. Hopefully all the protein I've eaten today will help, and if I feel the need for a snack I can make more turkey bacon. But I may give in and eat some popcorn...which is better then the candy and ice cream that I am currently craving.

I Need More Time

You'd think that since I started crafting for people's Christmas this past January that I would be ahead of the game. Yeah, no. I kept thinking, "Oh, I got started early, I've got plenty of time." That was a stupid stupid thing to think. I've only got four days left, three for my dad's side of the family and I've got a list of things to finish. I haven't even cut the material out for my step-dad's pajama pants.

I partly blame the kiddos. They love to get into things now, but it's not their fault. I miss the time before they were crawling. Set them on a blanket for their "tummy time" and I had all the time in the world while they napped next to me. And at the time, I was like, "I can't wait until they start walking and we can have fun!" I didn't think about all the changes that would bring. Don't get me wrong, I love the fact that we can run outside and play kickball and soccer and tag and stuff, but I miss that time.

This past Saturday we took them to get their two-year old pictures and Christmas photos. The disc was too expensive for us this year, but I thiefed them from the sears website for your viewing pleasure.

Birthday photos, five months late.

This one is Emma:
This one is Olivia.

Sheesh!

Gah. I'm a bad blogger. A very bad blogger. Time to step it up.

Busy Little Bee

I still haven't gotten around to finishing the "Home is where the *nintendo* is", but I have finished a few other projects.

Legend of Zelda coasters:

These two are for sale in my etsy shop. Blinky (from Pac-Man) is made out of 1/2 inch square "pixels" and is glued on black 8.5x11 cardstock. The Space Invader is made out of 1 inch square "pixels" and is glued on white 12x12 cardstock.

"The Code" cross-stitch: Looking at it now, I should have moved "start" a little further away from the "B A". Eh. Too late now. :)

As per usual, there ar more, but at least this time I have a valid reason for not posting pictures...yet. They're gifts. Once I give them out, I'll upload the photos.

BritneyMarie

"C" Is For "Crafty"

I don't know how I've done it, but I finally found the time between baking cookie sheets to upload some photos of the crafting I've been doing. Here they are for your enjoyment!

The first batch of pictures is of what I've been baking today. Two batches of fudge and four batches of cookies. There are a dozen cookies in each of the tins. I've still got to make two more batches of fudge and one batch of homemade chocolate covered marshmallows. And clean the kitchen...I've got to clean the kitchen. :)

I recently got into making coasters with Perler beads, here is what I've made so far:

This is a blanket I made for Ricky's previous boss at WCTV. He and his wife are expecting a baby in March.

This is a blanket I made for my friend Sidney. She and her husband expect their first baby in February. Her name is going to be Abby, but her nickname from me is "Guidette", so that's why it says that name.

BritneyMarie

Just Call Me "Martha"

I haven't quite finished my cross-stitch that I was working on last week. But I have been doing a lot of other things. I've been baking like crazy, and I won't be stopping any time soon.

Last night I made a batch of fudge, today the twins and I are going to my mom's house to bake two red velvet cakes. This week I've planned on making homemade chocolate covered marshmallows, three more batches of fudge, chocolate and vanilla covered pretzels, and chocolate chip cookies.

Recently, I've started getting into making things with Perler beads. They make really good coasters. Hopefully I'll upload the pictures soon.

Well, I've got to head to Mom's house now.

BritneyMarie