Thursday, January 27, 2011

Down 2 Pounds, Up 1 Sickness

From Friday (01-21) to Monday (01-24) I lost those two pounds that I had gained in the week before. Not really sure how I did it considering while in Tallahassee on Saturday I ate at Chick-Fil-A and Stake 'n' Shake. However it happened I'm just glad it did.

I'm also not sure how or where I picked up this sickness but I did. My eyes are burning (not all the time, usually when I wake up) my nose is running and draining into the back of my throat which gives me a sore throat and I can't stop coughing. Throughout the day I get headaches and earaches if I sniffle too much. Ugh. This sucks. I've got so much house cleaning to do that I am so far behind on. After dropping the kiddos off in the mornings I've been coming home and just sleeping until 1:30pm.

Speaking of, it's about that time today, gotta go pick up the kiddos.

Friday, January 21, 2011

5 Steps Forward, 2 Steps Back

Today at the gym I discovered that I have gained 2lbs back. While I am not happy about this, I'm not that disappointed either. I'll be happy with 5 steps forward, 2 steps back if I can lose 5lbs again. :)

I know what did it too. While I have been trying to stay within my calorie limit it is sometimes hard to gauge portion sizes for certain foods. Plus this week I have been more hungry than usual. Not sure why that is but hopefully next week I'll be back to normal and not wanting to shove everything I see down my throat.

Monday, January 17, 2011

5lbs Gone...65lbs to Go

I've been bad. Two days ago I ate half a jar a lot of peanut butter and went way over on my calories for the day. And then yesterday I ate macaroni and cheese for lunch with a root beer and finished off the jar ate some more peanut butter for a snack. I was seriously dreading hitting the gym this morning. Turns out, I didn't need to. 'Cause in spite of all the cheating I've done the past two days, I still managed to lose another pound since Friday.

That makes me feel so awesome. Not that I'm going to take this as a sign that I can cheat on my diet all the time. But it is so great to know that if I do fall off the wagon for a day or to that it is not the end of the world. I think that is a big problem that a lot of people have when trying a diet. They think that if they do badly on one day, what's the point of continuing. And I'll admit, I feel that way sometimes too. But then I just remember how far I've come so far (5lbs might not seem a lot to some people but it is to me) and I don't want to have to lose these same 5lbs over again. I want to add to it.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Two Steps Forward, One Step Back

So, last night I gorged myself on some of the kiddos potty candy. M&M's to be exact. I was having a serious sweets craving and I figured those would be better than eating a whole bowl of ice cream, or worse, cinnamon rolls. *drools like Homer Simpson* Cinnamon rolls...*drools* *snaps back into reality*

With those tiny candies, came a caloric overage. I went over by 177 calories yesterday. I guess I should be mad at myself, but I'm actually not. I don't want this diet to be something that controls my life. If I wanna eat a pack of M&M's I'm going to allow myself to do that. What I'm not going to allow myself to do is eat more than one. I think that by giving in to my temptations sometimes it will let me feel like this is not a diet, but my choice. If that makes any sense at all.

Today I've been especially hungry. Not sure why. Maybe I'm just bored. I have all these crafting projects that I need to get done, but I've been lacking motivation to do them, plus I have all this housework that I've been procrastinating on. I need to sit down and make myself a list of things to do each day and only when I do a certain number of them can I sit down and check on my farm, and mafia, and cafe etc. (Damn you Facebook! And your games that suck me in! *pumps fist*)

I'm beginning to notice that one of the hardest things for me has been the drinking. I want so badly to drink a glass of tea or one (or six) of the two packs of root beer that Ricky brought me home the other day. But those are empty calories that I could be using to, y'know, eat. *sigh* I've actually done quite well in that department so far. I've reached for the tea pitcher and almost poured myself a glass, but grabbed the water at the last second. I need to get some more of those Propel Fitness waters. They taste like Kool-Aid but only have 10 calories per serving. And they break up the monotony of just drinking water constantly.

Tomorrow, Sammi and I will weigh-in at the gym after Zumba. I've almost done it here a couple times, but I'm a little scared to. Usually when I weigh myself I do it right before I hop in the shower in the morning. And I'm usually okay with the number that pops up. But when I get to the gym, I've got my clothes on and while I realize that just by adding clothes it will add a few pounds to the scale, it just always seems to be higher. Like one time I was 193 here at the house and I was 198 at the gym! My scale at home has never tipped over to 200, but the one at the gym did. I don't want to get my hopes up here and see a lower number just to be disappointed when I get there tomorrow. So, I'm going to try and hold out until tomorrow.

I really hope that the scale will be tipped in my favor tomorrow. Every time I've gone there the number just keeps creeping higher and higher no matter what I do. I've been trying really hard this time, and I just want that to be evident in the numbers.

Wish me luck tomorrow!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Another Year Gone By

Here we go again. I swear I don't know why it is so hard for me to keep up with this thing. I'm on the computer constantly, and I used to be so good at writing everything down.

While I don't normally do New Year's Resolutions, this year I have decided that I will have one. I've decided that it is time for me to get serious about losing this weight that has seem to have crept up on me.

When we moved here from Tallahassee I was 154lbs. Monday I weighed in at 200. Not acceptable. I thought that number would never be seen again. The first, and what I presumed would be the last time, was when I was pregnant with the twins. The day I had them I was 210lbs. I thought those days were behind me, oh how wrong I was.

So, this year I have decided that I'm not going to lean on doctors to help me with a pill for a few months, or sit back and wish the pounds away. It is time for me to do something about it. And so far I've done okay.

My new cell phone has an app for weight loss. It is called My Fitness Pal. It allows me to keep track of my caloric intake and exercise throughout the day so I feel more accountable. So far I've been doing okay. I just started that on Monday and I have had a few times where I chose candy when I should have just drank a glass of water, but I think that is okay. I don't want to go overboard with this. If I want a few pieces of candy then I am not going to deprive myself of them. If I do, then I am going to make myself miserable on this diet and not do well on it.

My friend, Sammi and I have started going to the gym as well. We actually started going around October/November (I think) of 2010. We joined The Wellness and Fitness Center and started taking Zumba classes. I love it so much! Unfortunately, around Christmas we missed classes for about three weeks. And I spent that time taking care of sick children and sitting on my butt all day (not eating bon-bons, but I may as well have been). We started back in class this week. We've been attending the Monday and Friday 8:30am-9:30am class.

Today has been a pretty good eating day. I had two scrambled eggs with cheese and five pieces of turkey bacon for breakfast. And for lunch I had four scrambled eggs with cheese. My calorie limit is 1200 and I'm still under it for dinner. That's the hardest part for me. I'm usually okay during the day, but at night when I'm sitting around with Ricky watching The Food Network, all I wanna do is snack. Hopefully all the protein I've eaten today will help, and if I feel the need for a snack I can make more turkey bacon. But I may give in and eat some popcorn...which is better then the candy and ice cream that I am currently craving.